babai...

afzal dah pandai lambai tangan dah....last thursday, aku amik dia kat nursery and kak imah and yaya pengasuh dia babai tangan kat dia, dia boleh dengan gelak2 lambai balik...yeay!! terkejut mama!!

pandai...

pg tadi aku terlelap sambil menyusukan afzal kat nursery. to my surprise dia dah merangkak merata dah....celik je mata aku tengok dia tengah merangkak and then dia duduk...yeay!!! aku punye la happy sebab tu first time dia duduk masa merangkak.selama ni di tak pandai dudukl sendiri...aku tepuk tangan sambil cakap yeay!! afzal dah besar!!!dia dengar je terus gelak2 sambil tepuk tangan...and then merangkak balik kat aku nak dukung....hmmm...

The Secret

Last few weeks was a total disaster for me. But it was! It will never be again! I'm starting a fresh new life and a fresh new me. I'd always think hard before and now i'm thinking simple and easy. My husband did help me in this. When i had a shower yesterday evening, I'd just remembered about what my husband had once told me while we were wacthing The Secret "Things happens the way we think it could happens". I'd never really think about it until that day. I think people are #$%^ and what i see then is people around me are acting like #$%^. I told my husband before that i can't bear any longer where i'm starting to loose my edge. I'm starting to act like them, negative in every way possible. He knew me as a person who always enjoy life, a joyful person who he wanted to be with for the rest of his life. But now, it's different where he is the one who has make me laugh and cheer me up. He knew very well what had happened to me and how was it happened. So, without wasting any time, i asked him "do you still have the The Secret DVD?". He wondered but told me that he kept it somewhere he can't recall. So, it took him more than 15 minutes to find out it was actually in my chest drawer. "haha"....so, i hurrily finished everything i was doing at that point of time and watch the DVD. To my surprised, my husband was sitting next to me watching together the DVD that he had watched a couple of times before. He is a very supportive soul mate! So, i took my baby boy to watch it together as a family. I knew that he won't understand anything. But, all i wanted to do is doing the positive thing and i want him to be with us doing it. so, it took about an hour or so. While we were watching, i knew that people were wondering why these three people were so excited watching it. But, i just continue watching it until i found that i really found what i should have found earlier. And i thank to my husband for being there for me and for being positive which encourage me to be positive in every way possible. So, after watching the video, I cooked a simple dinner. And i told my husband this thing gonna have to end. I don't want to live in anger or unsatisfied for the rest of my life. All i wanted to do is living this life happily as we were when we both met. Everything in a right shape. So, he told me to stop take thing negatively. take everything positively. Although people are meant to be mean at us, we just let them chew those thing to themselves. we just do the right things we wanted to do and realise all our dreams at the same time never let people look down on us and be nice to them as if there is nothing going on. It's kinda hard but, with him by my side i knew i'll did it! so, i stop thinking negative, i started thingking positive. I woke up early, drive my son and me to work. breastfeed him and have a nice breakfast with my friend. and now here i am, typing this thing to let people know that this is the new me and i'm going to rock this world with my energy, my thoughts and my positive aura.

What is sonography?

Ultrasonography, commonly called sonography, is a diagnostic medical procedure that uses high frequency sound waves (ultrasound) to produce dynamic visual images of organs, tissues, or blood flow inside the body. This type of procedure is often referred to as a sonogram or ultrasound scan. Sonography can be used to examine many parts of the body, such as the abdomen, breasts, female reproductive system, prostate, heart, and blood vessels. Sonography is increasingly being used in the detection and treatment of heart disease, heart attack, and vascular disease that can lead to stroke. It is also used to guide fine needle, tissue biopsy to assist in taking a sample of cells from an organ for lab testing (for example, a test for cancer in breast tissue). Unlike X-rays, sonography is a radiation-free imaging modality.
The non-physician professionals who perform these procedures are known as sonographers and vascular technologists (who are sonographers specializing in imaging and tests of blood vessels).
There are several areas of specialization in the field of sonography. These specialty areas are:

• Abdomen - evaluation of all the soft tissues, blood vessels and organs of the abdominal cavities (for example, liver, spleen, urinary tract, pancreas)
  
• Obstetrics/Gynecology - evaluation of the female reproductive system
  
• Echocardiography - evaluation of the anatomy and hemodynamics (blood flow) of the heart, its valves and related blood vessels
  
• Vascular Technology - evaluation and analysis of the hemodynamics (blood flow) of peripheral and abdominal blood vessels
  
• Neurosonology - evaluation of the brain and spinal cord
  
• Ophthalmology - evaluation of the eye, including orbital structures and muscles

my job

Sebelum aku start kerja as a sonographer di PPUKM (previously known as HUKM), aku memang tak tahu langsung pasal kerja ni. Sampai la aku ditakdirkan kerja kat Scan Room, O&G Clinic,PPUKM. Sejak tu, aku sentiasa belajar benda baru. Semua staf kat scan room memang tak lokek ilmu. So, bermula lah episod hidup aku as a sonographer...

kursus....

hari ni aku bersemangat sket walaupun still feel sleepy.dah berminggu tak cukup tidur. not exactly sebab afzal la...it's actually sebab aku tanak sampai keje lewat. so i have to make sure that aku keluar rumah at 6.15am.so boleh sampai dalam 7.15am. hari ni jumaat so, our clinic takde patients sangat. tadi just buat 2 orang patients who came for post menopausal follow up and family planning clinic.then just tolong prof for klinik pakar punye detail scan. yang tak bestnye, datang la sorang houseman yang tak reti nak berbudi bahasa saying that she has detail scan today. tapi tak note dalam app. book. so, aku tanya la mana dapat app, dia marah plak.hiss...kita berbahasa dia nak naik angin plak.sudahnya, aku pass je la kat klinik dia untuk tentukan masalah dia...aku cuma memastikan perjalanan scan berjalan lancar di bilik scan.tapi untuk hal-hal appointment dari klinik pakar, biarlah mereka menjalankan tanggungjawab mereka dengan telus...aku ni bertugas di government wing...not private wing....

tadi, kak fahya told me to apply for ultrasound course.bagus jugak! there are 2 courses. basic and advanced.i think i'm going both of them.barulah aku certified....keje ultrasound ni memang best. tapi, kena ada minat and kepakaran and the skill have to be approved by any established ultrasound organisation.then, you can proudly do your job. senang sket bila dah certified ni.you'll be more confident...jangan over confident dah la....

kerja ohh kerja....

hari ni keluar kerja pukul 6.20 am.nasib baik jalan tak jam sangat.sampai ppukm, aku gi hantar afzal and then masuk kerja.hari ni patients tak ramai.

sian afzal...

skang afzal tengah nyenyak tido. tadi kat nursery ada kajian medic student.all went well.alhamdulillah doc cakap development dia ada yang lebih advance dari umur dia....hmm...maybe khasiat breastfeeding kot...petang tadi aku main dengan dia kat bilik.dia kan dah lasak.so, dia panjat2 la mana yang boleh dipanjat. tetiba, dia boleh jatuh ke lantai...hmm..nangis punye la teruk....sian plak aku tengok tapi tu la...dah lasak...malam ni tak pegi kedai nenek.so, aku masakkan dia bubur ikan tenggiri.afzal kongsi bubur dengan mama...hehe...banyak jugak dia makan.tapi dah kenyang boleh plak terbatuk2 sampai muntah...pastu aku breastfeed dia.ye la sebagai ganti nasi yang dia dah muntahkan tu....tu yang tidor lena skang.

dah pandai dah....

hari ni afzal aktif betul.macam biasa masa hantar ke nursery pagi-pagi, aku akan breasfeed dia dulu and masuk office around 7.45 am.tapi hari ni aku mengantuk sangat2 and dia pulak menyusu main2 je...so, bila dia macam merengek aku just biarkan dia main dulu.tapi tak sedar aku terlelap.tiba2 je aku dengar bunyi macam ada budak ketuk2 pintu almari..terkejut bila bukak mata, si afzal dah berdiri dengan satu tangan pegang kot and satu lagi tengah ketuk2 dinding kot.panik aku pegi tahan badan dia takut jatuh.that was the first time dia panjat and berdiri sendiri. hilang mengantuk aku.terus segar jek. last 2 days memang dah ada tanda2 nak berdiri.bila dia dah pandai merangkak slow2, dah memanjat kat tilam and berdiri atas lutut.tapi tak sangka dia dah berdiri supported la tapi....hmm...bermula la era kepenatan yang amat sangat untuk jaga dia kot terjatuh...semalam aku kemas dapur, tinggallah dia dengan ayahnya...boleh plak tengah2 elok dudu, terjatuh.hmm...nak menjerit aku sebab kuat sangat sampai dengar bunyi dum kat tingkat bawah......menangis bukan main kuat.dia ni bukan jenis nangis kuat2...so, kalau dah kuat macam tu konfem la sakit sangat.aku naik pegi amik dia dengan ayahnya.elok dia diam and makan banyak juga....kira, ok takde apa2 la tu.....hmm..anak...anak.....nanti sekejap lagi ada student medic nak buat development assessment kat afzal.nak kena bersiap ni.nak tengok macam mana diorg buat.

mama sayang sangat anak mama....

Tadi aku hantar Afzal ke nursery. As usual, aku breastfeed him first then baru masuk office. Itu la kelebihan jadi staf PPUKM ni. They provide us a nursery for us to send our children. Kat nursery tadi, Afzal bukan main lagi aktif....hmm...anak mama and ayah kan...no doubt dari mana datangnya gene tu...tadi dia sibuk sangat nak berdiri hari ni. hari ni dia dah 8 bulan 2 minggu.baru 2-3 hari boleh merangkak. tapi dah seminggu boleh memanjat and nak berdiri...very active and playful this baby...aku pun dah makin kurus maybe sebab breastfeed si Akzal and also sebab dah tak cukup tidur. Sekarang ni aku pegi keje at 6.10am.so most probably tak cukup tidor.dengan afzal suka sangat bangun malam nak main...too much energy....owhh...2 harui lepas kan...kelakar sangat budak ni.aku balik kerja ingat nak baca paper NST.kononnya nak baca paper sambil rehat2 dengan dia.aku baring atas tilam and dia kat atas puzzle mat dia....tengah-tengah baca paper, tetiba aku dengan macam dia termengah2.pusing belakang rupa2nya dia dah panjat tilam sambil tergelak2 happy nak kejar paper..aku alih paper dia kejar lagi.last2 aku surrender and bagi dia paper NST and baca The Star. Dia boleh main sambil gelak and terjerit2 kuat.dia sepah2kan paper tu, komot2kan and koyak2kan. then dia terbaring macam penat sangat.aku saja nak usik dia, aku bagi lagi paper tapi dia tak layan.dia baring sambil babling macam tengah nanyi sambil golek2 atas timbunan paper tu. pastu aku tinggalkan dia untuk berbuka kat bawah.dia boleh pegi depan bilik and berdiri sendiri sambil pegang bakul baju kotor.sambil nangis2 palk tu...terkejut tengok..bila masa plak budak ni bleh berdiri macam ni???pastu dah solat maghrib ayahnya bawak la kitorang pegi makan kat gerai nenek dia...dia maybe dah abis banyak tenaga masa main paper tadi...nampak penat and lemah je...tapi makan selera tau....lepas tu dia nak pegi kat nenek dia and tido dengan nenek....hmm....afzal...afzal...bailk rumah tak bangun2 sampai pagi.....

jadi model...

semalam aku minta tolong doc paeds untuk masukkan afzal as a model untuk exam ikhtisas final year undergrad medical student.nasib baik Dr Adibah tolong. So, hari ni, instead of hantar ke nursery, aku bawk dia pegi exam. alhamdulillah, he was very supportive today.ramai pakar paeds yang suka amik dia jadi model.siap ada yang dah hafal nama dia.hehe...anak mama ni memang sukakan attention...you love to be centre of attraction...right?

i'll be there for you...

hari ni Afzal still nampak tak ok. Tak boleh nak hantar ke nursery sebab doc cakap dia elergy habuk and maybe tak sesuai dengan nursery tu. but i have no choice kena hantar ke nursery tu jugak sebab aku breastfeed and dia refuse to feed from bottle. so PPUKM's nursery is the best place. Tapi aku jaga exam. nasib baik ayahnya pandai jaga baby.so, abis je exam, terus aku balik untuk jaga dia.

emergency lagi....

Afzal muntah2...dah 8 kali dah...mlm ni hantar gi emergency HTAR...tap too many patients.so, doc just tengok dari jauh.ok baby you tak apa-apa.just amik ubat tahan muntah....hmmm???

emergency...

hari ni aku kerja cam biasa. so bawak Afzal gi emergency sat.saja nak cek batuk dia tu biasa or athma. berjam2 jugak la tunggu tapi alhamdulillah tak athma...just batuk berkahak je..

jatuh lagi.....

hari ni ayah berhempas pulas mengemas bilik and buka katil.ayah cakap, dia risau anaknya jatuh lagi. aku pun tolong juga.nasib baik ada Imah.dia pun tolong lap barang2 and lantai.....dah siap kemas, aku letak afzal atas tilam and kat bawah tu aku letak toto tebal2....boleh pulak budak sorang ni buat terjun tiruk!! nangis la....huhuhu....

tak sihat lagi anak mama ni...

masuk hari ni dah 3 minggu Afzal batuk berkahak. Dia dah kurang makan and minum susu sebab everytime dia makan and susu mesti muntah banyak-banyak sampai lemah badan dia. Tapi sekarang nampak better. Dah nak aktif balik. Ni dah mula angkat punggung and cuba merangkak....tapi petang tadi, oopppsss...jatuh katil!!! Ya Allah! panik!!! tapi one thing we had just discovered, masa nangis dia sebut ma...ma.........ma..ma........

Growing up well...

Afzal dah pandai menyusup laju dah...tapi still belum try angkat punggung.....it's ok, take your time my dear baby....mama will always be there to support you....

monster...

hmmm...today, i had discovered that afzal loves to play "monster".....huarghhh!! ergghhh! Aummm!!!Nyum!Nyum!!!!