Thursday, May 28, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
last 2 weeks aku plan nak amik cuti.saje nak rehat.then on the friday, aku ajak farul balik kampung. punya la best ...tapi tak sempat gi pantai, afzal demam. selasa aku balik with my mum sebab my bro kena denggi.balik klang mlm tu, afzal panas yang amat sangat.merengek2 dia. aku panik mintak farul hantar gi klinik.tapi farul just bagi supp.alhamdulillah panas dia nampak kurang. tapi esoknya, aku still tak puas hati, so, bawak gi klinik.doc ckp demam panas.so, kena jaga betul2 takut kena kejang otot. aku berjaga siang mlm.cuma bila tido mlm je aku boleh lena.hari jumaat nampak mcm dah ok, tapi mlm demam balik. esoknya, aku bawak dia gi cek darah.pun nampak ok, cuma WBC dia high sket. doc suruh rendam dia dalam air.balik je terus aku and farul masuk dalam bath tub.kitorg berendam sampai kesejukan...keluar je dari bath tub, hujan lebat siap guruh lagi...sejukkkk! tapi afzal nampak stil panas.farul plak ada kerja yg nak dibereskan.aku apa lagi, aku curahkan air ka bantal and alas tilam dia.aku terpaksa biarkan dia tido dlm basah tu.alhamdulillah on sunday, he looks better.still lemah and takde selera makan tapi dah nampak better...hari ni selepas seminggu cuit aku dtg kerja. afzal dok nursery.pengasuh cakap dia ok cuma batuk tak baik lagi....
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
pg tadi aku terlelap sambil menyusukan afzal kat nursery. to my surprise dia dah merangkak merata dah....celik je mata aku tengok dia tengah merangkak and then dia duduk...yeay!!! aku punye la happy sebab tu first time dia duduk masa merangkak.selama ni di tak pandai dudukl sendiri...aku tepuk tangan sambil cakap yeay!! afzal dah besar!!!dia dengar je terus gelak2 sambil tepuk tangan...and then merangkak balik kat aku nak dukung....hmmm...
Monday, May 4, 2009
Last few weeks was a total disaster for me. But it was! It will never be again! I'm starting a fresh new life and a fresh new me. I'd always think hard before and now i'm thinking simple and easy. My husband did help me in this. When i had a shower yesterday evening, I'd just remembered about what my husband had once told me while we were wacthing The Secret "Things happens the way we think it could happens". I'd never really think about it until that day. I think people are #$%^ and what i see then is people around me are acting like #$%^. I told my husband before that i can't bear any longer where i'm starting to loose my edge. I'm starting to act like them, negative in every way possible. He knew me as a person who always enjoy life, a joyful person who he wanted to be with for the rest of his life. But now, it's different where he is the one who has make me laugh and cheer me up. He knew very well what had happened to me and how was it happened. So, without wasting any time, i asked him "do you still have the The Secret DVD?". He wondered but told me that he kept it somewhere he can't recall. So, it took him more than 15 minutes to find out it was actually in my chest drawer. "haha"....so, i hurrily finished everything i was doing at that point of time and watch the DVD. To my surprised, my husband was sitting next to me watching together the DVD that he had watched a couple of times before. He is a very supportive soul mate! So, i took my baby boy to watch it together as a family. I knew that he won't understand anything. But, all i wanted to do is doing the positive thing and i want him to be with us doing it. so, it took about an hour or so. While we were watching, i knew that people were wondering why these three people were so excited watching it. But, i just continue watching it until i found that i really found what i should have found earlier. And i thank to my husband for being there for me and for being positive which encourage me to be positive in every way possible. So, after watching the video, I cooked a simple dinner. And i told my husband this thing gonna have to end. I don't want to live in anger or unsatisfied for the rest of my life. All i wanted to do is living this life happily as we were when we both met. Everything in a right shape. So, he told me to stop take thing negatively. take everything positively. Although people are meant to be mean at us, we just let them chew those thing to themselves. we just do the right things we wanted to do and realise all our dreams at the same time never let people look down on us and be nice to them as if there is nothing going on. It's kinda hard but, with him by my side i knew i'll did it! so, i stop thinking negative, i started thingking positive. I woke up early, drive my son and me to work. breastfeed him and have a nice breakfast with my friend. and now here i am, typing this thing to let people know that this is the new me and i'm going to rock this world with my energy, my thoughts and my positive aura.